I have been connecting things again.......

So, my sacral chakra has struggled to function properly for as long as I can remember.  I didn't know what that meant, and especially how to work through it until quite recently.  It's been at least 4 years since I realized that it was one of the most significant symptoms I experienced regularly in both the physical and energetic portions of my existence.  It has been two, since I became aware of methods with which to restore function and balance to this energy point that I have.  I have expended much of my effort in discovery of what beliefs have caused this chakra to resonate at a frequency other than it's optimum.

It seems that as long as I made it my focus (and my frustration) to work, work, work on that "imbalance" within my energy body... I could chip pieces off of the "block", but just couldn't find my way to the root thought and emotions that settled there in contrast to the vibration that would allow my energy to flow freely through this chakra...., up until now.  

Things seriously do manifest quickly, once we set an intention and do not falter in our belief that Source Energy has everything we need, and we are Source Energy, therefore, everything we need is inside us... including the answer to the burning question I had for all those months, "Why can I seem to do no more than peel a layer off of this particular area of my life?", and it's partner "What am I missing, or blocking or hiding from my conscious mind and how do I get to it?".  I was on a quest, and many times I felt as if this would be one of the most important discoveries of my life.

Of course, as often happens for me, as soon as I let go of the feeling that I had to "work" for the answers, realizing I just had to allow the memory to flow into my remembrance, things began to quickly line up.  People, places and things arranged themselves in such a way, and with such perfection of harmony and timing that I felt like the Universe had created a Symphony just for me today.  It was one of those pointed moments that when you have them, you just know that you will not forget that day.. it will be highlighted forever.

It really was as if I was systematically building a house, not demolishing it; this process of discovering the root of it.  Foundationally, I studied the energy body, chakras, Qi, and a bit of Reiki.  This gave me the knowledge basis with which to diagnose the symptoms I suffered from on all levels of my being in regard to this issue.  Understanding the basics now of what the function of the energy body is, and how it behaves when out of balance, known as "blocked", I set an intention to remember what it was or discover what it is that clogs up this chakra point.  At first, I was so excited to actually be able to understand why my lower back and legs always felt tense, if not completely twisted up in pain, that I became focused and vigilant about "fixing" this.  That is what I do.  

When "the bell goes off in my head", and I realize a truth, I am often driven to evaluate my perception system around that truth.  To ascertain how closely my vibration is aligned with that truth, and this is what happened here, with my Root Chakra.  Once the initial pieces of information were processed, I began to put together the story, or memory, of what beliefs I had that slowed the natural flow of energy through that point.  Saying that actually reminds me.... I didn't really do all that much - I just became open to the solution, and things lined up to create it... because that's all we ever need to do.  

We confuse things with all of our efforts sometimes.  We only need to trust that all of the answers are within us, set our intentions with gratitude and faith and allow them to manifest.  After all, the formula never changes.... Thought + Emotion = Belief.  Beliefs, impressed into The Law (that facet of Source Energy which manifests form from belief) become things.  It's always the same.  It always works.  Where humanity gets confused with this is in trying to create, having 2 out of 3 factors in the equation.  Many of us attempt to set a thought into law that they do not actually feel the truth of emotionally.  The formula is not complete unless you have Belief.... Feeling nor Idea without one another do not create belief.  One must be able to embrace the emotion behind their thought to have an intention plugged properly into the source system, if they want to manifest the things they desire.

So... ironically - our lesson in Foundations class yesterday was all about the affirmation.  It should be noted that I did not really delve into this lesson fully because I had already done both of the first two classes in this series... so my homework just needed to be updated to today's perceptions.  Because of my quest, I have scoured the internet for information that will shore up what I know in my heart to be the truth.  Earlier in the week I had found Teal Scott's interview on YouTube with someone and during it she shared about how hard it was for her to "swallow" affirmations regarding self-love when she was introduced to it.  She used the concepts in Dr. Imoto's work with affirmation/vibration and ice molecules to combat this.  Instead of speaking the affirmations to herself, which she was finding ever more difficult, she spoke them into the water. Then, she drank it.  She called it "going through the back door".  When I saw this I remember thinking, "I wish I had known about that when I was in that same place in my journey."  I didn't have a resentment feeling, like you would when you envy someone finding an easier road than you.  But I wondered "why now, why not then" at the time.  Sure enough, there was an individual in our class who could not even utter the words of an affirmation to themselves, and I was able to share the tool with the class, including them.  It was such a blessing to be able to transfer that knowledge to others so quickly after grasping it.

Finally, this morning was the explosion in my head that clicked.  I subscribe to 11:11 Awakening Code on Facebook, and the theme for the week is affirmations.... and today up popped the Sacral/Root chakra, with affirmations... and there it was:

"I belong here.  I am a part of the tribe."

... and it resonated with me so intensely, that I knew it was the root issue in my blockage.  I began to recite these two sentances... and already I'm feeling a lessening in the constant pressure in my lower back.

This may look easy on the outside, because of the smiles on the faces of those who have chosen the path of awakening/enlightenment/healing.  Do not be fooled.  This internal work is the most intense journey I've ever been on.... but the smile comes from knowing that the work pays off in joy, bliss, contentment, and a feeling of connection like nothing I have ever embarked upon in my more than half a century on this planet.

Sandrasingh.com Yarns is having a giveaway!!

She has created this cool cowl pattern, called On The Hudson and is offering 4 chances to win it, and 1 chance to win a "kit" with the pattern and 4 skeins of her super soft, beautiful colorways of 1ply Worsted to knit it with.  I won a contest on her blog a few years ago and ordered a few more skeins with my winnings (she even shipped the rest for free!!).  I have to say that this is now one of my absolute favorite yarns!!  There are so many color combinations to choose from with names like, "Sherwood Forest" (certainly one of my favorites for "man colors"), Granny Smith & MacIntosh, Tiger Eye, and Tree Hugger... I could go on, but you should really check it out for yourself.  I'm entering and I've already got my colors picked out!!!!  Good Luck!!

Here's the link:

Knitting With Sandra Singh Pattern & Yarn Giveaway

Unique Places That You Knit

So, I almost never leave the house without a project.  I'm not a good "waiter" if I don't have something to keep me occupied while I wait.  Last night, I found myself so happy that this is the case!!!

I was on my way home from Grants Pass (45 min away) where I had to deal with some legal issues, and take a few things back and pick up a few things from the dreaded Walmart.  I was going about 15 miles over the speed limit when I saw flashing lights approaching from pretty far behind me.  I thought, "there's no way he could have clocked me from that far away, and I know I didn't pass him"... and pulled over.  The ambulance passed me, and the Oregon State Patrol was not far behind him.  I knew there had been an accident somewhere south of me on the highway, and hoped that it was the other side of Cave Junction, where I live.

I hit the stopped traffic about 3 miles from town.  Dammit.  My heater fan went out today!!  I hope this doesn't take too long.  Well, thank god for my baby blanket project, and my dome light!!!  Nearly 3 hours later, the scene was cleared and they let us through.  I am so glad I had my knitting with me?

So, how about you?  What are some of the unique places you've knitted in?  Any place you want to see if you can knit?  I always wanted to figure out a way to knit on the back of a motorcycle.. but the one I was on didn't have a sissy bar... so I figured I'd better wait until I had that support before I decided that I could pay attention to anything but staying on the seat!!!

Everything IS CONNECTED!!

Wonderment, I live in a state of WOW!!  Bubbles don't die on wet grass!  Barter Faire was WET in 2012!!!

It's 2013.  Somehow, I'm not surprised that the shifts predicted for emergence into the Age of Aquarius are subtle, smooth for the most part, and calming like a dip in fresh warm water.  I have noticed a few things.  My perspective is much different, but this has been a transition that has been the result of much deep introspection over the last two years in particular.  Not that I just began this internal process, oh no - far from it.

Over the summer, I found myself at an extremely familiar place.  A precipice, if you will, that I have stood at the edge of many times.  My mind sees it as a canyon, to which I would very much like to cross to the other side of, but there is no bridge, and the chasm is deep; the space wide.  I stand there longing for what I know to be "the future" on the other side of that split in the ground, knowing what I have always known; that if I just take the first step out there into what seems like thin air, a rock will come to greet my feet and this will continue as long as I keep walking, all the way to the other side.  I have been here in my dreams so many times.... it's so exciting to actually be able to see The Other Side! Each time I come here, I am right on the brink of embracing my gifts.  But for some unknown reason, or fear, I have never stepped out.  It's never been that I didn't believe in the "bridge" that would appear, or am afraid of what is at the bottom of the canyon.  Today, I know what it's been about all along.

The Other Side is Me.  The expanse is Being Alone.  I was never afraid of falling.  I was afraid of walking across alone.  Every time I went there, I was alone.  I spent my whole life avoiding being alone.  I'm alone.. almost 6 months now.  I have found myself.  I feel so balanced, and my stress level is lower than I ever imagined.  I feel free, free from the prison I created for myself.  Free from the constant fear of being alone.  Free from "the search" for "the one", for I may have already experienced him in this existence, and I will settle for nothing less than what I had and lost so abruptly.  Free from the dream of walking hand in hand on the beach, or sitting with my love on the porch in our rocking chairs.  I don't have to chase that anymore.  I am fine all by myself.  In fact, I am better than all the descriptions of fine... I'm awesome, I'm excited about finding out more about who I am and I am content.

I looked for Serenity, Sanctuary, and Solace not to a place - but to people.  I needed to look inside myself.  But I was too busy trying to be a part of someone else to know who that was.  I was the oldest.  I was a leveler, and a people pleaser most of my life, and when my parents divorced I became parentified, as my mother didn't even know how to balance a checkbook when I was nine years old and they divorced.  She is an alcoholic, with MPD tendencies, and battled Chrone's Disease, and Breast Cancer - I was a co-dependent before i ever left home.

I've always known somehow that everything is connected.  That we are all a part of something bigger, that we are an expression of god.  I'm sure of it now.  I'm no longer afraid of the transition of my energy from this body, as when I became a widow in 2008 - evidence proved to me that there is no death of "me", only my body will expire.  Without fear of death... I find there is no fear at all... because if the worst thing that can happen to one is death, and it's just a transition into another form... what's to fear?  Nada people, nada.

So, today I start this blog to share my thoughts about connection.  You will find that I love to connect things, people, yarn, fiber, thoughts, hearts, Legos and Lincoln Logs!!!

You might find all kinds of things here.  Contests, surveys, links, art, crafts, DIY, spirtual awakening, Fire Spinning, Drum Circles, Singing Bowls, Fesitivals - It's all about CONNECTIONS!!